So this weekend was my birthday.. big girl now 22. So my sister and I decided to drive out to las Vegas and get a little crazy. Friday night we went to Pure in Ceaser’s Palace and it was packed so we ended up walking to as many hotels as we could and drinking in all the casinos instead. So saturday was a day at the pool nursing a bad hang over but then it was back out for more party! We went to Tao at the Venician which is an awesome night club and I decided to drink tequila. not such a wise choice. I get fighsty. So after a whole heck of a lot of dancing we met some guys and they take us back to their suite at the Hard Rock. Their hotel room was sick! it had a bowling alley lane in it, multiple rooms and multiple jacuzzies. I don’t remember a whole lot from there but i was informed of my mischeif the next day…. I guess it didn’t take me long to get completely naked and start jumpin around. I do remember trying to slide around on the smooth bowling aisle,, i have always wanted to do that. but then i decided to take the party to the rest of the hotel and ran out of their hotel suite. I guess while I am going nuts i like to be chased because I started to run from everyone. I was running through the halls, up and down the stairwells, and catching rides on the elevators. Finally I got scooped up by security and returned to my sister. I guess I really didn’t want to put my clothes back on and in protest ran away one more time… hehe.. i’m so bad. My poor sister. They finally found me and got control of my crazy self and we headed off finally  to our hotel around 9am. I don’t remember hardly any of this but i do remember waking up the next day around 1 and was still pretty messed up. ugg what a bad day that was. I am still recovering and tryin to catch up on sleep. I’m just so glad I won’t see anyone from there ever again,, or atleast I hope I don’t.. cuz i guess half of the hotel saw me naked!!

Gotta love vegas!!

So I have found the perfect house to move into! I am counting down the days and there is only 4 more to go! I get to move in friday and can’t wait to unpack and clean out my car. The back seats and trunk have been full of my clothes for the past month. My new roomies seem really cool too. They want to throw some sex parties since it will be the perfect environment. It is pretty secluded so I can definitly walk around naked. I also am looking forward to tanning naked on the porch next to the pool! Yay! I’m gonna have the other models over all the time, as long as they stay naked with me though of course. My roommates will love it! hehe.

So lately life has been a bit chaotic. I have been living with some friends while I search for a place to live but have had no luck for my perfect pad. I am looking for somewhere that I can feel comfortabe, like good roomies, also i want to be able to make some noise every now and then. Gotta play those tunes! But what I really want is to live really near to the beach! I know I’m not the only one but hey a girl has gotta try. So I’m holdin out until that perfect one falls in my lap. I sure am learing tolerance though. I am living in a house with 5 guys and 1 other girl. And the boys are a bit messy. So I basically live out of my car. The one good thing is that no matter where I go if I forgot something I just have to run to my car and find it. The bad part is that I can only have one passenger in my car at a time bc i have no back seat available. Not the end of the world though. I can be happy no matter where I am or in whatever circumstance.

Wish me luck!

xoxo

Madison B

So after a 3 years break from school I am finally starting it back up again.  Some people say that it is very hard to leave school and return and that a big majority of people who do stop inbetween never return at all. This, fortunately, is not the case for me. After a few years  of  exploration, adventure, and travel I had the time to reinvent myself and learn a little more about life itself. During this time I really developed a desire to learn and get an education and therefore am on completely different ground throughout the school day. I choose to be there, I am excited about being there, and I’m pretty sure I will end up doing my homework and be a little more responsible with the tasks alotted to me(which I never was before)

I feel that to be obligated to be in school does far worse for people who are in that situation than for people who choose to wait and go when they feel they are ready. It makes a world of difference to the way I view school and going to  my clasess.

I would have never thought I would be the type of person to get excited and actually like school. But here I am rambling about it… lol…

xoxo

The other day I was talking with someone about caming and internet chatting. They were concerned that they would appear to be creeps or weirdos just because they enjoyed chatting online to people they didn’t know. I was a little surprised by this being a cam girl and all, but we had a nice discussion. What I told him were my thoughts on internet chats.

What I think is so great about not only the internet but also chat rooms, etc. is that you have the opportunity to be completely honest about yourself. There is a channel for you to vent, to truly express yourself. This is especially good if you are hindered in some way to do this in your daily life. A lot of people have fears of looking bad, embarrassing themselves, not being liked, the list goes on, but all of these fears then sculpt their actions and words. People say that people make things up about themselves on the internet just because the person on the other end isn’t going to know it, but is this not happening in the real world too? Do people not create a false outer shell of themselves just to look good for others? There isn’t much of a difference to me between this type of being whether it be in syber space or the actual world.

Yes ofcourse, every once and a while you will get a weirdo, but that is normal, even in everyday life you encounter these people, and face to face honestly, is worse.

My personal experience being a cam girl has been the large part of why I think what I do today about the internet chat sites. It is because when I get on to cam no one is there judging me(or atleast I think). We are just interacting, talking, making jokes, playing with emotions. Just like everyday life only there isn’t that voice in the back of you head telling you how yellow that person’s teeth are or how bad their breath smells. lol. nope. You can appreciate a joke or a compliment for what it is and have no judgment about it or who it is coming from. That is what I like so much. That gives me the space to share myself, my deepest secrets, my wildest fansatsies. All the things I would never tell my ‘real’ friends for fear they would think less of me.

So I say get over it. The world now a days is the internet. Cell phones, texts, you name it. Technology is forever a part of our lives, we might as well embrace it instead of fight it.

Yes there are pros and cons to it all, don’t even get me started. lol. But look at the bright side of things. Always.

Be well                                                                                                                                                           xoxo

Madison B